I got new glasses with new prescription lenses on Saturday. My old glasses have served me well, but haven’t been cutting it for the last few months. Reading and writing has been tough. While it is really fun picking out new frames and ultimately I know I’m better off with a prescription that best suits my eyes, I have been feeling nauseous for the last few days while adjusting to the new lenses. Everything seems slightly out of place and getting used to them is just really uncomfortable. The only reason I’m struggling through the discomfort is because it is even more uncomfortable without them.
They aren’t the only new lenses I’ve received recently. I’ve just started an introductory theology class. And it’s messing with my head. Or my theological “lenses”. Even without knowing it, I’ve seen God, faith and the Bible in a very particular way. We all do. It’s quite uncomfortable when someone starts asking questions that your lenses or way of seeing things can’t answer. Even though my old theological lenses were awesome for a season, suddenly the old lenses are no longer sufficient or helping me see clearly. But I still haven’t adjusted to the new lenses yet. It is quite an uncomfortable place to be. I feel as though I don’t know what I think anymore. Yet the saving grace and reason for sticking at it when its tough is that I know it is more uncomfortable with my old lenses or without any at all.
In the mean time I’ll just learn to sit with the discomfort and see what happens next.